Love is all around..

So today was a massively hot day where I had a little girl to entertain. We decided to go to the Shepparton Markets and check out the stalls before it got too hot. I had no plans to spend money as I'm trying to save up for Christmas presents, but I saw some gorgeous necklaces from The Little Bean and some cute shoes from Vintage Cotton Candy. As soon as we got out of the car and went walking, I spotted my first geraniums of the day. A beautiful pink bush, that reminded me of the lovely souls who are blooming all over Shepparton. I have met so many lovely friends at playgroups and sometimes just through striking up a conversation with another mum over a tin of formula at the chemist. Lovely people are all over the place, if you just look.

We filled the day in playing and unpacking and visiting. A quick trip to the library to pick up some new books, spin in the red chair, play on the boat, and get the obligatory cup of water. When we got home I saw something else - a beautiful pot of geraniums outside my door from an unknown source. I texted three possible people and it turned out to be my lovely friend Sharon. She has been such an encouragement to me and has opened her beautiful heart and life to so many. Friends like Sharon are like cool water on a hot day...soothing, refreshing and life giving. Sharon, you are that to so many people. Your love allows so many of us to bloom.

Thanks for reading, here's to another day of seeing the blooms in my life.

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